I need outside view on this. Im stuggling with my purity. not to get into too much detail but i accidently discovered it earlier this fall and its been an ongoing issue. last time ive touched myself was over a month ago and ive been to confession since then which is why i havent actually touched. but two weeks ago i had what i think is called a wet dream and i woke up and felt my v. was all wet like from arousal. i know this is normal for males but im a girl and ive read that it isnt common in women.
I know that wasnt a sin. but beginning of this week ive found myself wetting again. not completely uncontrollably. but i’ll be doing homework and if i stare off into space and just think i get the feeling and moments later i just burst. I think this has to do with me trying to resist and prevent it from even starting. ive been trying to keep myself busy so i wouldnt be able to space of and think and fear it going again, but its a major struggle. im just shameful its happening and that i unfortunately get that pleasure feeling as it happens sometimes making it stronger.
im aiming to get to confession sometime this month. im just not sure if this is a mortal sin or not. i cant really help it from starting and im getting better at resisting i think but soon as it starts i just let it continue intentionally hoping it’ll pass soon. im really concerned on this and my priest knows of this from my confession so if i get him i can discuss this again next time i go.
is this a mortal sin? I have not touched at all aside from seeing how wet i got. i know if i touched it would mean me contributing to it and i may not be able to stop myself. Im going to try carrying a rosary so when it arises i can start praying and put my concentration on that. any input, any advice would be really great.
God bless. and please pray for me and all who are struggling with purity :signofcross: