Hi guys, (I REALLY need help with this issue and it’d mean the world to me if you could give me some insight… i know its a little long… but if you have time itd mean so much to me if you could share your ideas…)
I am an 19 year old girl in Catholic University of America and Ive been having a super rough time ever since the beginning of this year- my freshman year. Over the summer I met a boy (Vincent) that i would be going to school with when we started. We were inseperable all summer and while we did not make a commitment to only date each other… we didnt see anyone else (even tho he lived 4 hours away). When we finally got to school things went downhill really fast. He blames it on his intense schedule and family stress. We fought bitterly… BITTERLY for all of september… finally october we started to get better, but had decided it was best to just be friends “temporarily”. But i was hurting a lot because i never saw him and i am in love with him. And it hurt. After praying for numerous signs I was getting frustrated until one day i THINK i got one!
In September I prayed the St Vincent de Paul (his patron saint) novena and the day it ended i got sick and the boy took care of me and for awhile it looked like we’d be gettingintoa relationship, but of course his “stress” came back into play. So finally I ran into the Basilica (i have the luxury of living on a campus where the National Basilica is in my backyard lol) and i got into the chapel of the miraculous medal. and then i just threw my arms up and prayed, “what do you want me to do? is this the guy i’m supposed to spend the rest of my life with? or is this just someone i’m supposed to just get over.” and i heard something say “it will happen but you need to give it time. trust me give it time he needs time and space to clear his head and everthing” and i prayed, “well what am i supposed to be doing while i wait… just wait”? and i hear something again “live your life now it will happen when its supposed to happen. all in good time. soon. just be patient” and i said “well should i just stop talking to him?” and i hear “keep communication open but dont overwhelm him…dont be posting on people’s walls (facebook haha) in order to make him jealous. (i was doing this and it was making the boy upset) dont be flaunting around other guys… dont set out to make him jealous. if he sees you with other guys and gets jealous great… thats a perk… but you need to just act normal. dont set out to make him jealous”
and i prayed,“i want a sign” and i look down at the kneeler and it said "a gift from the VINCENTIAN (his name is Vincent) brothers’ and i said to myself “alright… thats weird. but thats not obvious enough that doesnt tell me anything so can i have another sign? a more obvious one?? that could just be coincidence??” and i heard something basically say “no you have to just accept the sign i give you. if you dont trust the sign i give you then you dont trust me… that was ur sign just accept it” and i prayed, "okay your right. thanks for the sign "
i get up… and immediately to my left when i get up is this huuuuge statue. and underneath the statue it says “universal patron of charity” and i was like “no way… what is this a statue of” and i see the inscription on the wall “st. vincent de paul”
is that a sign?? i felt like i got hit in the face when i saw the sign. And a few days later the boy and i decided to be “friends indefinitely” and instead of being devastated… i was happy because i felt like this was good because i KNEW it was gonna happen but i was supposed to just wait… but now things are getting harder… and it has only been 2 weeks since the sign but im starting to lose faith… I just dont know if this was a sign or a coincidence.
If it was a sign… what does god want me to be doing? just wait patiently? My friend said “well you said you were going to wait and here you are being impatient and not listening to the advice god gave you. God said to wait and it would happen when its time. He didnt say… wait… 2 weeks”