Hey, so I’m just looking for advice/opinions as I’m not sure. I was reading a celebrity gossip article (something I previously spent a lot of time doing but have been trying to avoid lately because of my mindset) and it was in relation to a tv reality show I used to watch, a wedding, one of the guests looked as though her chest was uncovered at one side (a few images down in the article) I spent quite a bit of time looking right at the picture trying to work out if she was actually dressed like that at a wedding (I was a bit baffled as her dress didn’t fall that way) I can say completely that I was not attempting to gain any kind of sinful reaction but even so, I’m a female and have been suffering quite badly from OCD and explicit images/thoughts lately but I was I think, of sound mind in this instance. I’m actually quite surprised considering my mental state lately that I was clear headed.
I’m just wondering because of me deliberately looking at the image was I committing a sin, I have previously made a promise to never deliberately search for and watch pornography (after having a previous habit when I wasn’t quite as invested in my faith) but I am, quite certain that I had no sinful intentions but definitely shouldn’t have looked at the image for as long as I had (it seemed like quite a while maybe between 10-30 seconds but I really am not sure)
but I was just trying to work out if I was seeing correctly even though I thought I was, (and to be honest I couldn’t tell you if I did see it correctly or not)