I am a 15 year old Catholic guy who is interested in becoming a priest, most likely in a religious order. However, I can’t tell if this is a vocation or a ‘career I’m interested in’?
I think that I first said I wanted to be a priest in the first grade. I had most of the mass memorized by the time I started altar serving in fourth grade. Speaking of fourth grade, I read like half the Bible by the end of 5th grade (not that I really understood any of it, but it’s the thought that counts) Then in middle school I started “experimenting”, which culminated in a girlfriend that I broke up with a couple of months ago. I love spiritual reading, and have read everything from St. Augustine to Thomas Merton to Jesus Freaks to the Baltimore Catechism. Every other career I have ever been interested in has been is related to the priesthood somehow: teaching, politics, social work, stuff like that.
On the other hand, I have very little patience, and a quick temper. I don’t think I am responsible enough, patient enough, forgiving enough, or in general “priest material”. I also can’t tell if I am genuinely interested in the priesthood or in the cooler aspects of it, like remote missions and being a chaplain in the military.
So is this a vocation, not a vocation, or what? If it is, is 15 too young to start talking to the vocation people in religious orders? Which would you reccomend? (I am very big on the “Church militant” stuff, i.e soldiers of Christ, St. Michael, etc.)