Today I have had a really hard day. At the evening, I was very sad and tears started to go from my eyes. At first, I tried to stop it because self-pity is maybe sinful. Last week I explained this situation to a priest and he said that it isn’t mortal sin, but I didn’t understand is it sin at all. I think he said that it isn’t… However, he maybe misunderstood me and he is maybe even wrong… Anyways, I asked God to help me and Blessed Virgin Mary to pray for me. And then, probably as result of prayer, my crying stopped, but I felt dissapointed. I feel better when I cry. However, now I am glad it stopped. When I cry a lot, I feel really empty, and now I felt OK when crying stopped. While crying I immagined how others would treat me differently, in a more loving, or at least, in a kinder way. There are some reasons why it could be sinful:
- self-pity may be denial of God’s mercy and resistance in carrying our crosses (although I am not sure what is the difference between feeling sad for our problems and self-pity).
- st. Augustine in his “Confessions” writes that he fought sad feelings inside him when his mother died and he asked God to forgive him if he sinned by crying for 15 minutes in his bed. If he is afraid that he sinned by crying because his mother died, then I must supress crying because of my problems.
- Jesus died for my sins, shouldn’t I supress crying for much smaller things?
- It is harder to pray
5 it is possible that God answered my prayers by stopping sad feelings. That may indicate that they were sinful
In my head there are also arguments that say action wasn’t sinful:
- I expirience my life, so it is natural to be sad for bad things in my life. I don’t expierience other people’s lives so I can’t feel feelings for other people’s problems.
- feelings don’t matter
- I was upset, so the fact that it is harder to pray doesn’t indicate that action is sinful.
Was this action sinful?
Please answer question directly, by saying is it sinful, not is it good and should it be repeated.
SORRY FOR BAD ENGLISH!