three years ago my mother whom i had been caring for since i was in my 20’s passed away. in 2003 when my father passed away my mother took out a life insurance policy to pay for her future funeral expenses,and to give me a little something to try and start my life with. it was no more than 50 thousand dollars! when i collected it. it disqualified me from getting any public assistance from the state of new york [welfare.food stamps. medicaid] or from the federal government [ssi /ssd] i am disabled with medical problems such as asthma.diabetes. heart trouble.and depression.
my situation gets worse. the building that i live in. a three family home is owned by a violent gang-banger with a long record of arrests for aggravated assault in arizona. he lives in the building. under new york state law. he has all the rights and i have none. he can charge whatever rent he wants or even evict me. three family homes are unregulated.
since 2009 i have been trying to find work to support myself. so far i haven’t been able to find anything. i have no family or friends who will take me in. and i will not stay in a nyc shelter! a man was knifed for his coat in a shelter.
it looks like i have only one choice, and that is to become a homeless drifter? to try and walk on foot out of brooklyn new york and try to walk to a warmer state like florida or new orleans where i can survive outside living in some park? and im not a healthy person. i take medication for my asthma [advair] and for my diabetes [metformin] and for my high blood pressure [accupril]
i dont know what to do and im very scared. it feels like i have no choice and that god wants me to take this path, where i will surly die someplace out there:banghead: