I am an incredibly picky eater. I know. but I really, really wish I wasn’t. It really seems to be out of control. Sometimes when I have to eat a food I don’t like I start shaking and I attempt to force myself to eat it but I cannot, as I get nauseous. (I’m 14) My mother packs my lunch most days, and most of what is in my lunch I don’t like. I have communicated with my mother about this, but she continues to do it. I know that I am a tremendous burden and it is too hard to remember what I want to eat and what I can’t, so it is very much not her fault.
I have always been like this, so I am used to not eating much. I, therefore, eat very little during lunch do that there is a lot of excess food. I know my mother will throw it away at the end of the day. I offer it to my friends and when they don’t want it, I just bring it home. I am tempted to throw it away, because I am fine but I used to have an eating disorder and I don’t want her to worry or be angry with me. Would that be lying, or wasting food? My mother doesn’t like to pack me smaller portions because a teacher emailed her once, telling her she wasn’t giving me enough food (without asking me how much of it I even ate).
So is not eating my entire lunch a sin? An example of a lunch I would eat on a typical day would be celery sticks (I do not eat them), an apple, which I eat, a cookie, which I do not eat, and a piece of lunchmeat, which I do not eat. So is not eating the other food a sin when I really try to eat them but sometimes I get sick when I try to force myself?
I’m very sorry if you think I am a brat. It really sounds so easy to eat new foods when I type about it but in person it’s really really hard for me. : (
Thank you to all who respond.