It has been 6 months since my ex broke up with me. I know people tell me in time it will get better but its honestly not. Things are just getting worse.
I am falling behind with school work, I am getting ill and I am so depressed.
I am trying my best to be positive and to do things to take my mind off it etc but I can’t.
This time last year we went on holiday to Iceland and we were so happy. I don’t understand how he fell out of love with me or why it happend. I don’t understand why he doesnt even seem to miss me at all because we’re not even friends. I wish we could at least be friends.
I don’t understand how or why this is God’s plan for me because believe me we were perfect for each other and made each other really happy. My ex got depression and I was living 300 miles away so he gave up on us. Married couples fall in and out of love all the time but because they are married they (usually) don’t give up on each other. I know we weren’t married but I honestly believed and still do believe that one day he would be my husband.
I would actually do anything to either get him back or get over him but I’m scared because nothing is working. I can’t get him back and I can’t get over him and I really don’t want to feel this way anymore. I don’t understand why it won’t get better. I feel like it will never end.
Please pray for God to help me find the right path. Only God knows if I am meant to end up with my ex or with someone else, but I wish He would reveal at least part of the plan to me. I can’t cope much longer.
I wrote this yesterday and posted it on the prayers forum page.
Last night I had a dream that we got back together and had so much fun like we used to have. Since waking up from my alarm I have just been trapped in my bed crying. I am falling behind with my studies and I am honestly trying to catch up and to take my mind off things and to move on but it just doesn’t seem possible. The past 6 months have been hell for me and I keep hoping its a bad dream that I will one day wake up from…alas its not. I just wish I could get over this