I am a senior at a Catholic high school. In my first three years, I have never missed a day of school, but this year, I’ve had to stay home three days because of nervous breakdowns. Today was my third one. I was placed with some lousy teachers this semesters and, I’ve never had a social life until this summer and, even though I like them, they sometimes give me as much stress as they relieve. I am sleep deprived, depressed, and I was crying horribly yesterday because I do not want to live anymore. There seems to be nothing to live for; I am in a hell hole and there is no way out. I’ve been so good the last three years as a straight-A student and I am ashamed of falling apart this semester.
My midterms start this Thursday, but there is a strong chance that I can fail some because I cannot concentrate or study well enough. I am just a wreck and I want to die. I am afraid of my mom finding out that I went home today (she is coming home from vacation soon). People have told me that she is emotionally abusive from my descriptions and I am scared of what she is going to say. Pray that I study hard and do well on my midterms and that I do not do anything stupid. Thanks.