[quote=Jabronie]Try thinking about some of the past church leaders, saints, or even Christ himself and what they have gone through.
many things in this life are reletive. that is, when compared to other events, things that seem so horrible become trivial.
Example: while in the MS and LA gulf coast, i filled in for a paramedic shift in a district that covers Interstate 10. a call came out around dusk for a motor vehicle accident with injuries. our medic unti beat the police and fire engine to the scene, and it was a two car collision with one car wrapped around a tree, and partially involved in flames. the father driving the car was ejected, and the mom and small daughter were still inside, with the mom pinned by the dashboard. my partner smashed the back window and got the girl out, while i worked with a crowbar to try and rip the passenger side door open. the flames then started to ignite the dash, and spread.
i fought and fought to tear the door off with my bare hands and crowbar, but it wasnt long before the flames ignited the seats and upholstery. i layed down on the ground as far away from the fire as i could, all the time hearing the woman screaming and pleading while she burned. everyone, and i mean everyone was yelling for me to get out because the car would eventually explode.
i just remember looking above me and seeing her arms outside her window, on fire and banging her fists on the door in agony. my partner sprayed the fire extinguisher several times, but it didnt even make a dent, and all it did was get on the woman’s already burned skin causing her even more pain.
all i could think to do was just spray the extinguisher all out to try and put out the fire, but partly because the carbon dioxide from it causes immediate hypoxia (lack of oxygen) and the person passes out, and eventually stops breathing.
the screaming stopped after about 5-8 seconds of spraying, but i honestly dont know whether it was from the burns or from the CO2. but you could still hear the fizzling of the water and fats from the womans body.
to top it all off, when fire got there and hosed the car down to put out the flames, the woman’s head exploded right in front of us.
horrific, but absolutly true. eveything i tell you here happened within 5-6 minutes or so, a 5 minutes that actually made me think about (very briefly) going to the hotel and using my police sidearm on myself.
its not my fault. things arent often YOUR fault either. its just the way life happens. the best we can do is to play the hand were are dealt, and ask God to “hit me” with some compassion, love and strength…