2nd Sept. is the end of my current employment. They have already betrayed that they want to give me another period - it popped up when I asked for a bit of leave so that I could study for attorney training entry exam (here you need to pass an exam to become a trainee attorney after graduating from university and training takes 3.5 years before bar exam). I am suspecting that they will offer me completely unchanged conditions like they did the last time, no matter what they told me about raises when signing the first one. As for assignments they give me, they tell me how important they are when I get them, but then the same assignments are suddenly collateral, mundane and not enabling assessment of me as a worker when it comes to it. Since I’ve seen this law firm lie in court letters, I can’t really force myself to give them the benefit of doubt here. Also, work conditions and general disrespect have worsened to the point that when I made an unconventional move that possibly prevented the firm and the client from being issued an anti-suit injunction in a 6 billion dollar suit, the boss said publicly that I did truly well for the first time ever. The 12-13 hour days, which had stopped for a while, are returning, and the work isn’t about writing motions but it’s mostly paper work they could hire someone (more people) to do. I can’t take any more of it, but all the law firms where I’ve sent my resume are ignoring me. No reply whatsoever, not even a “thank you, but no”. I would drop this job on the spot and tell them exactly why I’m doing it, if only I had another in sight, but nothing. I’m going to have to talk to them about the new contract and I don’t really know what to do. I must tell them some things, but I don’t know how much, since if I said this all, how would I look signing another contract with them?
Every day or rather night I come home, I’m dead, I can’t study for the professional exam or write anything for my Ph.D. course and yet they would give me more and more work, to the point I can’t or can barely have 8 hours for sleep before coming back, this already after downright refusing some assignments. I can’t keep up and I don’t want to give away all my time in my 26th year of life like this.
So far I’ve decided to talk to them, tell them what I think about the tasks and the way they talk to me or go about the assessment, and contradict every lie and call them on every inconsistency, even if it’s going to make me unemployed. But I won’t make it easier on them by walking out. I’ll stay and see what they do to this. Another decision is to refuse to sign another contract if they don’t guarantee even that little leave and an uninterrupted one, since the exam matters more to me than the current job. And since my exam doesn’t matter to them, they matter to me all the less. But this is going to get me in trouble as nearly no firms talk back to me no matter what.
If you wouldn’t mind a short prayer during these days, I would be grateful. One of these days I will have to talk to the boss.