Hello. I intend this question largely to any novice masters/mistresses or vocation directors or suchlike who may be on this forum, but I'd appreciate the input of anyone knowledgeable about the subject.
It's always been said to me that one experiences a great joy in living out one's vocation in life. What would you say to one who is doing so without that joy, but instead seems to be doing so with much grief, or resignation, or sadness? I ask this because I think I'm being called somewhere new now, not so much regarding state-of-life, but regarding work, home, social circle, and so forth. The call has been going on for a year, but after missing a golden opportunity to move on this which seemed almost fated last year, I just can't get over seeing my new call as "sloppy seconds" and feeling great sadness and self-reproach about what I've left behind. I note that I'll be going through the Spiritual Exercises soon with my director to get a better sense about this, but I thought I'd put the question forward here in the meantime so see what responses I get.
So, what is going on here? A defect of faith? Despair? A just self-reproach?
Thanks for looking at this.