You may not agree, but I am in the Kingdom.
Actually in a spiritual sense . . . I affirm you ARE in the Kingdom (albeit imperfectly).
*But Christ calls us to a more radical transformation than merely spiritual. *
Jesus calls us to eat His flesh and drink His blood too.
And from your own words here you have not yet been given the graces (for whatever reason) to believe Jesus in this humanly impossible sphere.
To radically believe Jesus that Jesus is REALLY and substantially present body, blood, soul, and Divinity in the Eucharist.
Thus you have not received the Eucharist in the manner called for by our Lord.
Jesus wants our Spirits AND bodies transformed.
And the reception of Jesus in the Eucharist helps our spirits AND our bodies.
Our bodies are involved also
Not just our Spirits but our bodies are involved with this whole process too.
(In sort of an "anti-example")
That’s WHY St. Paul can warn the Corinthians that if they receive the Eucharist in a state of unbelief or grave sin their BODIES are affected too (“that is why many of you are weak and ill, and some have died”).
1st CORINTHIANS 11:27-30 27 Whoever, therefore, eats the bread or drinks the cup of the Lord in an unworthy manner will be guilty of profaning the body and blood of the Lord. 28 Let a man examine himself, and so eat of the bread and drink of the cup. 29 For any one who eats and drinks without discerning the body eats and drinks judgment upon himself. 30 That is why many of you are weak and ill, and some have died.
“He who eats my flesh and drinks my blood abides in me and I in him”—Jesus the Messiah.
It is in this sense, I was referring to.