I am currently 7 weeks pregnant with baby #7. I am 36 and my husband is 38. He has a good job which allows me to raise our kids at home. I love it and enjoy watching them grow up. However, as I posted before, since my last pregnancy, I have been living with hip pain which basically will require a total hip replacement whenever I say go. My husband and I decided this was a “serious” reason to avoid but long story short, even though we thought we were safe, I still got pregnant. Most of the time, I think I am at peace with this. However, I am afraid this pregnancy will really make it hard for me to walk and care for my other kids. These fears really seem to pop into my head at night and I will just lay awake worrying about this pregnancy and my impending surgery.
Anyways, outside of my husband who is supportive, I am afraid to tell anyone. I am even putting off scheduling an ob visit. Everyone knows of my hip issues and will surely have an opinion. My mom and dad have been hinting since my last baby was born, that I should be done. I feel like I need to justify myself to others, especially to those who don’t understand our position on birth control. And, in reality, I question that myself all the time. Am I doing my current kids a disservice? Am I being irresponsible? That is my biggest feeling. I used to think we would just have a vasectomy when we were done having kids. However, in the last few years, I have come to see the great blessing nfp has been to our relationship and I really want to make this work(even if we don’t seem to be very good at it!) I can’t imagine complete abstinence until menopause. I know some people do that, but sometimes I think the risk of pregnancy would be better than that lack of intimacy in our marriage.
So anyways I guess I feel like when we tell people about this pregnancy, I need to explain that it was a “mistake” so no one thinks poorly of us. And I know I can simply announce the pregnancy and leave it at that but, believe me, people will come out and ask. Please pray for me and this baby. I am afraid for our future and this surgery looming over my head. I have an appt with my ortho doctor in may after baby is born. I would like to breastfeed for a year so unless I end up pregnant again or need it ASAP, I will be getting a new hip at the ripe old age of 38!!! Depressing!!!