I grew up in the pre-Vatican II era, when Mass was very solemn and holy. People were very reverent and respectful of the Most Blessed Sacrament. We went to the Communion rail and knelt to receive the Host on the tongue. All that seems to have gone out the window with the implementation of changes after V-II, whether this was done appropriately or not.
Personally, I believe this has caused a lot of Catholics to lose the sense of the Holy and Mystic and REAL presence of God in the Most Blessed Eucharist. There is talking, laughing, applauding, and other behavioral aspects I find irreverent and distracting.
However, I follow the mandates of the Holy Father and the Magisterium, which tell me it continues to be the same Mass and Presence of Jesus. I go along with the practice of standing during during much of the Mass and the very little amount of kneeling in my particular church. I lament many of the changes, but know that God continues to bless His Church, regardless of my emotions about it. I, too, was told that my stance should mirror that of the rest of the people, though I like to kneel after receiving Communion. The congregation stands until all have received and the Sacrament is again placed in the tabernacle. During Communion, there is loud, guitar and rock-style singing, and I find that most distracting, keeping me from the quiet and prayerful time with the Lord Whom I have within my very being.
Again, it continues to be the same God, the same Church, the same Sacrament. I offer God the suffering this causes me, and pray that our Holy Father Benedict XVI will make some changes back to the spiritual and quiet beauty which blessed us in years past.
I receive Communion standing and on the tongue, but make a reverent bow just before receiving the Host. I’ve seen people kneel just before or during reception. I just think that no one should be offended that some people are just more traditional than others, after all, this is the Catholic, Universal Church, encompassing all peoples and all cultures.
You are being reverent in your behavior, I believe, but if you examine yourself and find that you are doing it for “show” at times, well, you’ll know what to do.
May God bless you abundantly and keep you in the hollow of His hand.