Back in April I started a discernment process to see whether the diaconate was for me. My prayer life was abundant (probably the most intense its ever been), I talked to a priest i know and he thought it was a good idea for me and to keep praying, i felt like I was really getting a lot of signs from God this might be for me and then WHAM…i lost all focus and all motivation. I still prayed but barely half heartily, missed Mass on occasion, did not go to Confession as much as I used to and this spiritual dryness literally just happened out of nowhere. (maybe the devil just doesn’t want me being a deacon). I have had dry spells when it comes to praying but nothing ever like this. This went on for a good two or three months.
Recently I was able to get back on my feet and have begun focusing much more on my prayer life again. I am much better thank God. However, my archdiocese is having their “Inquiring Night,” about deacon formation in a few weeks. My question is do i still go to the session even though my discernment and prayer life was interrupted by this spiritual dryness? Also, is it normal to have a very intense prayer life and then just suddently do a complete 180 spiritually?
thanks very much!!