I love this forum. Everyone here is so understanding! I just want to share my story…Feel free to add your story too!
Shortly after my daughter was born ~ I went thru a period of postpartum depression that lasted a little over a year (I didnt recognize it as PPD at the time, but now I do)
Its been a roller coaster ride. During my PP depression, my thoughts were foggy, my goals for my life were unclear, I feared making decisions because I was sure it would be the wrong one. During this time, I struggled with these things on a daily basis. I made every excuse so that my loved ones would stop telling me I was depressed… First I blamed it on being homesick-I wanted to move~I was sure that would be the answer…Then I wanted to go back to college & pursue a ASN degree (very different from anything Id done in the past) I felt guilty for not being a SAHM because of poor financial planning & nursing would allow flexibility (I knew deep down I would never finish my degree, it was an escape & deterrant). I had an array of reasons to feel guilty for something & a mountain of ideas for making my life better (all QUICK FIXES). I now realize that all of these quick fixes were masking the fact that I was avoiding working on myself…I was looking for answers in places that wouldnt provide meaning or purpose.
With lots & lots of love & support from my husband & God, I got thru it & amazingly feel like myself again. My recovery process was very difficult, but with each passing day I started to learn things about myself, & started facing difficulties that I had ignored for years.
I found this explanation on a website & it really rang true for me:
*People miss out on spiritual learning experiences of depression when they look for a “quick-fix” vs. working on the core issues which are causing their depression. People can work out of depression with God’s help and the resources (He provides!) which are available medically and psychologically. *
All of life is a spiritual learning experience. God is there for people who are suffering. People can really experience God’s help and presence in the valley of depression."