Ah… The feeling of being anonymous… This has made confession easier to many people and allowed them to be more open with their confessor… All the while taking on the form of just a voice with no face…
In my own experience, I prefer to confess in the more anonymous type of confession then face to face… Confessing to someone you greatly respect makes it just that much harder to humble yourself… But, at times, it is, as some say, something you need to offer up.
Do not feel sad or rushed that there are lines for Confessional at your Parish… Feel rejoice and praise Our Lord’s name as so many people come to Confess their Sins and asks God’s forgiveness… I would celebrate time away from our Lord in Holy Communion if I can not recieve absolution due long lines at the Confessional. Offer up your seperated time and ask the Lord to allow you to recieve him Spiritually during the Sacrafice at the Mass.
Be joyful that others have found forgiveness and pray that it allows them to grow closer to Our Lord.
Also, don’t brood at Mass about your sins… Pray to the Lord and Sing Glories to His Name for the Miracle your are Witnessing in the Eucharist.
Satan is the great tempter and the great accuser… He will tempt you to sin then make you feel guilty and like a failer for sinning.
God does not abandon one, nor is he disappointed in one.
When a parent teaches a child to ride a bike, they are not disapointed when the child falls. They rush to their side to pick them up and offer them encouragment and get them back on their bike. They stay by the child’s side always watching incase the Child needs help.
When one sins, they are that Child falling off the bike, God is the loving parent picking us up and comforting us.
If you do not believe you have enough time for Confession, but do not want to call your Priest for a private confession time, Then become a morning person. Wake up early and go… There is no pressure to fit in all confessions before Mass then as most churches do not have Morning/Midday Mass after the Early Confessions. Offer up any sleep loss and set your alarm for the morning… I’m sure Absolution will give you that wake up perk and what a wonderous way to start the day.
If that won’t work, Call the Priest and schedule a Confession time… You might lose that feeling of being anonymous, but think of how much more you’ll feel when you are able to partake of Our Lord in Holy Communion.
If that still scares you, Call the parish anonymously and set up a time for Confession… I’m sure the Priest won’t mind setting up a time then waiting for you in the Confessional… How many Priests would turn down the chance to hear the Confession of one wanting to ask for forgiveness of their sins.
I hope this helps you in some ways and I’ll include you in my prayers tonight.