This is probably going to seem like a silly question to most of you, but I promise it is an honest question. Here goes…
My husband abstains from meat on Friday’s year round. So I, a non-catholic, do the same. Somewhat out of support, somewhat just because it is most convenient. (Why fix separate meals, just so I can have a steak?) So this year, I decided to go ahead and include the fasting on Ash Wednesday and Good Friday as well. Partly to see what it was like (maybe it would help me in my Christian walk) and partly in support of my husband.
Recently, I have been thinking… If I am going to do this, shouldn’t I be getting something out of it. Not that it should be about me, but maybe I should get some kind of spiritual growth from it. Unfortunately I’m not sure how to go about that. Basically, no meat on Friday’s has just become routine. We do it year round, it is not a big deal. Tuna sandwiches for lunch and Fish for dinner. I like both, so it isn’t a big deal to have to eat them. (Maybe occasionally if a friend invites us over for dinner, I might wish I could have that burger, but usually it isn’t a burden whatsoever) So I guess my question is. What am I suppose to get out of abstaining? Should I be internalizing something? I don’t really feel like I am going out of my way, so there is no real sacrifice on my part. So I am not sure how abstaining is helping me. Or what the reason is behind it. Obviously, I am doing something wrong, so can you guys help me correct it. Maybe I am misunderstanding the reasoning. I just feel like there should be somekind of inner thought process, prayer… something to go with the lack of meat. Any thoughts, suggestion, or criticisms would be most helpful.