My father past away last march 23… He suffered for some sickness. 7 years of battling for his life. At first thought, i am always saying that life is so unfair. Because my Dad is a very good man. he don’t smoke, drink beer or liquor, no vise, and a very loving person in general. He took very good care of us. but why he suffered so much for that 7 years? It seems like he is being punished for a very big sin. That’s why i am questioning it. Now i remember, during his early years, his work is a painter at a softdinks company. So obviously, everyday, he drinks a lot of soda for about 40 years i think. So i am considering it that it is the sin that he made for his life. he didn’t took care of his health because of the nature of his job… But thinking of it, is that enough sin for the suffering he experienced for his last 7 years here on earth? But now, i’m holding the answer that, “God only knows everything”. Its very painful for me when he past away. until now, i missed him so much. I want to see him in dreams. i want to talk to him. I want to say sorry for the disappointments i made. But I am glad that we lived together for 38 years. I love my Daddy so much. Please help me to accept the reality and be happy with him for he is now with God in Heaven. I also want to be lectured about life after death. I am being paranoid by the writings in the internet that after death, there’s no more. I don’t want to believe that. I still holding on the belief that after our lives here on earth, there’s is a place for our soul with God. and that is the Heaven.