Everything is changing, I am saying all my goodbyes here in Florida and wrapping up business and will be making the move North mid-week (I pray).
I will be contacting Catholic Charities in my new location, where I don't know a soul, to continue post-abortion trauma counseling and try to hook up with a Catholic counselor. I sense my time in the psych world is done--I will only need to see a psychiatrist every three months or so for medication.
Finding a PCP doctor and a psychiatrist (and possibly a neurologist), and DENTAL CARE! which is costly, will be my biggest practical concerns once I settle into an apartment.
I will always love my husband. I will be 40 minutes from my son, and my mother and father. My understanding is that, although the marriage was not valid, our relationship as husband and wife is, and was, things just got very mixed up. The legal tie needs to and will be broken--court date in about 30 days and then it's over, we've settled about the money and property, and he is being very kind as far as immediate personal and financial help with the move. I am VERY concerned for his relationship with my son, and praying HARD for them, as well as trying to help them both understand about Daniel and Franciesca, their children/siblings in Heaven--my mother and father too.
The reality of the move is upon me, will be blooking flights, etc. tomorrow, have to go it alone as my mother would only inerfere; however I trust with regard to those relationships, I'll leave it at that.
Learning to pray the rosary, my Project Rachel counselor gave me a colorful little plastic one, together with many wonderful gifts both substantial and soul-wise, she is an older lady, I will miss her. I will miss Florida, I will miss hearing the Catholic radio station, it's still a wonderful surprise, 16 years later, every time I step in the car and the radio is on and tuned to the station.
Many arrangements, many goodbyes, SCARED! The song that's playing through my mind is "Stay by my side, If you leave me I will die..."
God bless this site and all the help I have received here in bringing my time in Florida to a sensible conclusion, great spiritual progress.
God Bless you.