Now that I sit back and think about my life I have really come a long way. And I thank all those people who have made an impact in my life in this forum. With all the advice that they have given me.
I am proud and happy to say that I am not a broken women anymore. It has been a process but LIFE DOES GO ON. And we need to except that. We get knocked down so many times but that does not mean that we cannot get up and dust ourselves off and move on with our lives. I allow the hurt, pain and suffering that happened in my marriage to consume and destroy me. But look at me today. I am better and I thank God for that because I allowed him in my life those feelings of rejection, loneliness, hurt, pain and disappointment are gone.
Time does heal all wounds and as I look back on my life this was meant to be. I marriage was over a long time ago a part of me did not except that but as I look back it was meant to be.
The divorce is not final yet but he and the teenager are living together. The 7 month old baby does not even stay with them but with her family in another town that is about 10 hours away. And they work together in the same shop and live together but they are not even bringing up their child somebody else is. It is as if he has forgotten what family is if he can walk out on his wife and two kids. Now he is not even staying with that child. That is something that I would never do is leave my small baby for somebody else to look after. Is she so desperate for a man that she will leave her baby so faraway to be with a man that is not even divorced yet. It is sad and I look back and say to myself did I really love this man. Did I really try to committ suicide because of the relationship that they have.
He lost out on the best thing that ever happened to him. His children the life we could have had if he was willing to change his verbal and abusive ways but he was not. Maybe this girl is his soul mate as they are both so shallow and selfish and care about their own needs. And he will never do to her the things that he did to me. He is molding her to be the kind of women that he wants.
But to all those people out there LIFE DOES GO ON. Don’t stay knocked down pick yourself up from that floor and move on with your life. In life everybody makes mistakes but they are not mistakes they are lessons and we should learn from those lessons. And remember that we are all very special people God does not make trash. Don’t have hatred, resentment for anybody because you are not only blocking your own blessings but you are allowing those people to control your life and who you are. People look at me today and say that they cannot believe that I am the same person that I was a year ago. Now I am ready for the next level in my life. Have faith in God, believe in him and everything happens in his time not ours in his time.