All these abuses I see and hear about really getting to me. Is there any hope?
I really feel your pain. I have been in the same “depressed” state about the condition of the Church here in the Pacific Northwest for some time. God finally brought me some relief when He led me to the one truly traditional Parish in the whole city but I recently had to move an hour away from that Church and the search for a new one left me so despondent that I actually did not go to Mass for two weeks. And this is what I learned:
I was putting my “feelings” about the way the Mass was celebrated before Christ.
I was sacrificing my entire relationship to my Lord because priests and congregants were doing things wrong.
I was depriving myself of being in Christ’s presence and receiving His peace and grace because I was too “upset” about the state of things.
I was allowing the devil to convince me that it was acceptable to be so mad at the Church that I would sacrifice my relationship to Christ.
I finally realized that I am not in charge: If Christ is really upset with the state of our Church, HE will do something about it. How could I be more upset than God?
However, I did write letters to the Bishop, went to Confession, spoke with my priest and spiritual director and searched until I finally found a Church with a solid Liturgy. You must persevere and remember that we do what we can, and the rest is up to God. If and when He has had enough, He will fix it.