Hi. This is very difficult for me to post publicly, largely because of the generally-patronizing attitude towards Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD), but I need some help with it. I have OCD, and as a Catholic progressing in RCIA closing on baptism, it is causing me alot of difficulty with my faith. For those who don’t know about the more intricate nature of OCD, it gives the mind of it’s victim unwanted thoughts all day, and then keeps them in the person’s mind by making them obsess over them. It then creates ways to deal with the anxiety caused by those obsessions, illogical rituals called compulsions that are often very detailed and usually just cause even more anxiety but are very hard to resist.
As a Catholic, this makes my spiritual life very hard. All day, I get unwanted thoughts such as doubts about my faith, immoral thoughts or images, or negative emotions that OCD keeps in my mind continuously through forced obsession. For example, I will have some sort of pain, and not only will my mind instantly get the doubt that because I have pain, it means God doesn’t exist (I know, it is totally irrational), it will obsessively keep that doubt in my mind and give me other unwanted doubts as to why it’s true. This will make me anxious, cause compulsions, etc. This goes on with me all day.
Please, I need the prayers of the great Catholics and non-Catholics here. I need my Lord Jesus Christ’s help desparately with my illness. I am trying to help it myself, in any way I can, but that is often just not enough - I need God’s help. So if everyone can please give me their prayers, perhaps our voice lifted up to God will pour down his grace onto me. I ask my wonderful Virgin Mother Mary to intercede for me in this prayerful request.