I'm good at solving other people's problems but not so good at solving my own. Maybe someone who reads this could tell me whats going on and what i should do.
Basically i've made a lot of big changes in my life this last year and its all been about my faith deepening,because something very bad happened to me and i ended up nearly at death's door. I turned to God and he has showered me with blessings. The thing is, not everyone has been so supportive of me turning to the Church. I go to Mass nearly every day, pray the Rosary, follow the Commandments fairly well, go to Confession etc. But its more than that. I actually find great love for God and great joy in following him. My life has changed forever.Its lovely. But not quite that simple. I have been criticized for "taking things too seriously"; "being over-the-top"; "being too hard on yourself". I've had ridicule from my family: "Oh you don't believe in hell and all that **** do you?" "The Vatican's behind the times" ; "You'll go to Heaven anyway"; "Don't be silly,you won't get punished for that"...etc....
I've patiently not preached, not lectured, and tried my best to avoid conflict. Virtually every family member has found fault in how i am living. But whats really hurting aswell is that the man from whom i separated due to differing religious beliefs is trying to make my life as hard as possible. He has been harrassing me for months and spreading lies about me; saying i'm brain-washed and that i'm "not the girl i fell in love with" etc....He's been doing every possible thing short of physical violence, to hurt me and get my attention. I've had to change my numbers and keep the door locked. I still havent retaliated. I have only told 2 close friends about this. They both said go to the cops but part of me inside is saying would Jesus want me to go to the cops? Also, i dont have much evidence anyway for a barring order or whatever.
I feel very lonely. I dont wanna drag family&friends into a side-taking soap opera n i just wanna be left alone. I dont want to get angry and mean and vengeful but i feel afraid and its like no-one seems to get how i'm trying to handle this in a Christian way.
I feel too tired to pray and just dont know when this will all end. :(