I was just wonder if anyone else has had a similar experience.
I was just sitting her at my desk and all of a sudden I had and still do have a longing for the Eucharist. I went to 7:25 Mass this morning and did have tears after receiving the Eucharist. Anyone had a similar experience that would like to share?
Up until this past Sunday, I had not had the Sacraments in over a year. I was married in a civil ceremony and so I could not go to Confession, receive Holy Communion etc. This past Sunday, however, my wife and I had our marriage convalidated. So I know what you mean: I almost cried when I received Holy Communion.
During my adolescence I used to go to confession only twice a year and recieve Communion 4-5 times. It was because I didn’t understood how important it is to recieve our Lord and especially because going to confession was a really difficult thing for me to do. However, about 3 years ago, I began to experience a real longing for the Eucharist, at each Mass I would almost cry because I couldn’t go to Communion, and every Sunday I would make a promise to myself that next week I will make peace with God and join the others. Unfortunately, I kept delaying making this step, and with these weak resolutions I was getting nowhere, despite my strong desire to be closer to God.
So, about a year ago, out of the blue, God gave me the power to go to confession fearleesly. For a moment, I had no difficulty, no pain, no anxiety…and now I can say that I recieve the Sacrements more regulary, even if the grace of courage that I had back then comes rarely, I still experience a lot of fear, but it’s better that before. With this step ahead in my spiritual life, my longing for the Eucharist diminished, in the sense that I still want to go to Communion, but it is not anymore that strong pull to go. Now it’s my turn to make an effort. But I’m still very emotional when I think that Jesus was calling me to recieve Him and that He helped me in every way possible to make this happend.
My longing varies in intensity from day to day. For most of my life, I did not have a longing, I just received because of Jesus’ words “unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink His Blood you will not have life in you.” I just took Him at His Word. However, now for a while, I do have a longing. I have been studying more on the Church Tradition and Scriptures concerning the Eucharist, which I have come to understand so much deeper than when I was younger what the Eucharist really is.
On day, after receiving Jesus, a prayer came to me, a prayer of thanksgivings and I say this prayer each time I receive Jesus.
Eternal Father, I thank you for the Gift of your Son; Jesus, I thank you for the Gift of your life, your Body, Blood and Heart that nourishes us on our journey into eternity to you.
I hope you again experience those moments of longing for Him. Ask Him for this grace to grant you the desire to receive, at least from time to time.