I need some advice here;
I’d say I’ve been doing a “decent job” of being a Catholic since my last confession, and I get to doing a decent job of following the faith through frequent prayer. I try to say at least one rosary a day, and I’ll say the Jesus Prayer randomly, especially on walks sometimes I’ll say it over and over, etc, and I’m trying to do good works too (which are a form of prayer), like cleaning the house for my mom, etc.
The problem is this though. I’ll go to confession and then be doing really good for a few days. I’ll pray a lot and everything. Then at some point I’ll start to feel like my faith is “slipping away”, I’ll have bad thoughts about religion (i.e.: what if this is all false and I’m wasting my time?), the Devil starts tempting me very harshly and I don’t know what to do. I don’t know whether I’ve actually doubted this week or only been tempted to doubt, but it’s disconcerting regardless.
I feel like part of it might be because I get “obsessed” with religion and because of the obsession I end up getting “sick of it”. I’ll think about Jesus all day or whatever, try to direct my actions towards him, and then I start to get tired and begin to drop my Cross a bit towards the end of the week.
So has anyone else dealt with this, and how did you deal with it?