I could really use some help. I am a complete mess right now.
I have struggled with purity for years. I was, by the grace of God, been able to overcome my addiction to pornography & “self gratification” over 3 years ago. However, I still struggle greatly with purity & chastity. It is now causing me to lose (at least) 2 important friends. Both of these friends are female, married, with kids. I see them on a regular basis through my work. I find myself attracted to them - physically & emotionally, desiring them, etc. I have tried all kinds of things from extra prayers to extra confessions, to changing what I’m thinking about when I’m around them, nothing seems to help get me past these desires. It has gotten to the point that I have pulled completely away from them. I am afraid to speak to them or even look at them for fear that these desires will come back. They have no idea what is going on, only that their friend doesn’t want anything to do with them anymore.
I don’t know what to do because I am miserable when I’m around them, they are upset, I don’t have any idea how to “fix” it, & I see no end in sight other than losing 2 friends.
Any suggestions? Any help? I don’t want to be miserable anymore. I don’t want to lose my friends! I DON’T WANT TO FIGHT THIS BATTLE ANYMORE!!!