This is hard for me to do, but I feel like a cry out to the anonymity of the internet is all I have left anymore.
My dad and I have never had a good relationship. I could go into details, but lets just say that for most of my life I identified as someone who was fatherless. Well, in the last year or two I have been spending more time with my dad. We’ve kindled a relationship that has grown into a father-daughter relationship that I have always craved. It’s been a new and wonderful experience for me to finally have a father in my life. I can’t explain the joy and peace, and DEPTH of love this has given me in my own life, and how it has helped me find Father God even more. I am crying as I write this at how happy I am to have my father in my life as a father. He’s apologized for the past, and we are doing all we can to make up for lost time. I can’t explain how joyous this is for me.
Not long after I started to find this relationship with my dad, I got devastating news. My dad has been given only a few more years left to live. I feel so sick just thinking about it, and I stuggle with the anger that comes from finding my father, only to lose him again. Please pray for my dad, that I can have more time with him. I…I just have a hard time with these new feelings, and this fear and grief that has found me over this. I have been trying to cope on my own for several months now, but I don’t know how.