Brothers and Sisters,
it has been a mighty long while since I have frequented these forums, which could most definitely be one of the reasons I have gotten to the state that I have gotten to. This must be my first post back in about 3 months, i would guess. It hasn’t been more than a year that I have been a confirmed catholic (recently received this past easter) and my faith has deteriorated into nothingness. I need help, from you my brother and sisters, some encouragement that I am not alone. I am a young man and struggle with sins of the flesh, pornography, the whole lot.
There are good times, but more and more often there are bad times. I feel like Jesus has gone away from me, and that I am all alone against the world, which is literally against me and my plight. My prayer feels empty, and lately I find myself having to convince myself of the truths of our faith, ex. the real presence. I cannot “feel” it anymore, I have to convince myself it’s true and real. I sin against myself and against the Lord. It happens so much I’ve almost become indifferent to it, and as such just don’t feel sorry for it anymore.
I don’t feel worthy to even pray anymore, but I know that I must, but I just cant. I feel confused and lost, trying to find the light I used to see. I will never give up, but at the same time i feel so empty. Can anyone relate to this? Does anyone have any useful comments?
God have mercy on me, and on all of us!