I married my wife a a few years ago. Before we married my wife was brought up with no faith. She showed a little interest in the faith and started RCIA classed and was received into the Church, and was baptised, confirmed and made first Holy Communion.
When we married in the Church, she was not practicing her faith. I had to almost force her to go to conffesions a couple of days before we were to be married. She has not been since.
She never had a strong faith, and when we had a still born child, she really has lost all faith wont go to Mass or receive the Sacraments and questions why God would let this happen to the child. We also have had 2 healthy beautiful daughters.
I find it quite hard at times to keep strong in my faith and bring my daughters up in their faith by my own. I think my life, marriage and faith would be so much better if my wife was strong in her faith as well.
When I see other young couples at Mass or at Holy Shrines, pilgrimages etc, I get quite jealous and wish me and my wife was like them. I just know just how better our life would be by going to Mass together, prayer groups, pilgrimages, day trips to shrines etc.
I do love my wife and children, but sometimes think it would of been easier to of found some one who was already strong in their the faith or enter the religious life (which i really feel called to and really regret not discerning)
Thank you for reading.