I know Mary was a virgin who couldn’t even be intimate with her own husband…and I know Joseph was more the role of her protector, while she took care of him and his house, as any wife would. But would it be sinful or border on blasphemous to think they might have had moments of feeling the normal feelings a man has for a woman and a woman for a man? I’m asking, because I’m writing a novella of Mary’s life (just for my own eyes, never to be published), and I’ve written a long scene where Joseph is looking at Mary one night, wishing he could have her completely, yet I’ve written their interior thoughts on how they both know and understand it would still be wrong in the eyes of God. I’ve written that every now and then, they’ve had such temptations, yet they’ve, of course, never succumbed to it. Is this terribly wrong? I don’t know if having written this has left a bad taste, so to speak, or if I didn’t commit a sin by writing of them in this way. Again, I wrote it this way to make them seem more real and that they did now and then have the feelings of a man and woman, but their love of God kept them from acting on it. Just their feelings.
Thanks for any thoughts. I know it’s just a story, but I don’t want to face judgement at the end of my life for this if it was a pretty awful thing to have written.