I am a single Catholic female who feels that she is called to the Sacrament of Marraige. I am 30 years old. I joined a Catholic Singles website and find it wonderful for fellowship but have not dated anyone. I have not really dated my at all in my life. I seem to be attracted to older men (this is a pattern) and then I find out they are not interested in me in a romantic way only being friendly. To my terrible disapointent and heartbreak. By older men I mean those in thier 50’s.
I am trying to think this over rationaally. I do not know many single men in my age range who have same beliefs as me (as in I know 0). There seems to be a lack of nice men my age. I know this is unfair and maybe male-bashing but men my age either seem to be very stuffy suit-and-tie types ( I think that I have placed most men who belong to the Catholic singles service in that category, whether fair or not.) The casual friendly guys seem to be only interested in smoking pot, talking about porn, and chasing skirts. Now that is not at all true of men on Catholic sites but very true of guys I meet through work. I wish there were more laid-back blue-collar type men who were gentlemen and had good morals. I feel so cynical.
I am not against white-callar type guys but I am just so afraid they will not accept me.That they will look down on me and my friends. I am from a basically middle-class backgroung and I have a college degree but right now I am working in a job that does not require a degree. I work in a nursing home. And I work evenings so it would be next-to -impossible to get involved in church young adult groups.
I am working to try and be a better person. Trying to dress more feminine and become more mature. Am I too quick to think people will judge me.? Guys don’t give me a second look.