I appreciate any advice you might give me, and I apologize for struggling to articulate myself.
I recently committed a horrible sin, which, on one hand, was certainly a grave matter. But while it was was a terrible sin, I did it in a matter of seconds without reflecting on it or thinking it out. That is to say, had I taken 10 seconds to consciously decide how to proceed, it was repulsive enough that I know without a doubt I most definitely would not have done so. But I didn't take 10 seconds, I took two, and this sin just sort of erupted out of a dark place within me, which I don't understand and which horrifies me.
I am struggling to find a way to describe a rather stream-of-conscious decision without denying that fact that it was a personal sin for which I am personally responsible.
In a matter of a few seconds, I got my head on straight and stopped. I immediately felt guilty. And tonight, I went to confession, where I believe I accurately and completely described what I DID.
I did not, however, describe what I was THINKING (and at this point, I've analyzed it in my brain so many times I don't think I could even explain what I was thinking---particularly given that this sin wasn't well thought out).
Here are my questions:
Do I need to go back and confess the thought portion of the sin? (This isn't quite what I confessed, but for example, would a confession for an impure act require also listing "impure thoughts," or could we assume that confessing an impure act also covers the impure thought?)
As I made my Confession, I said something to the effect of, "Then I realized what I was doing and stopped." Did I make a bad confession by indicating that I didn't know what I was doing--thus refusing to take responsibility for what I did?
By simply listing what I did without explaining the dark motives that led me to sin, did I understate my sin and invalidate my confession, even though I think that I accurately and completely stated my sinful actions?
I apologize for excessive wordiness here and any lack of clarity. Thank you for your insights.