Okay, I don’t want to be overly biographical here, but it’s kind of necessary to illustrate my point so here’s just a few thoughts that sprang to mind today whilst I was making lunch.
My situation in life is a bit odd as I graduated from college at 19, feeling much too young to handle the responsibilities of adult life that my peers were taking on. Instead, I chose to attend graduate school for 3 years following college to obtain my law qualifications. Again, the school was private and Catholic and I made a number of very good friends there. Most exceeded my age by 4-8 years. During these three years, I was not in any relationships though I turned down several very kind individual’s suggestions for such. Though I felt somewhat guilty at the time, my reasoning was that I did not feel mature enough to take that step.
Following graduation, I sat for the bar examination and continued to practise law for another year while the economy took a drastic turn for the worst. As job prospects continued to decline, I picked up everything to travel halfway around the world to gain my international legal qualifications and “start afresh” somewhere else. Fast-forward to today where I am currently: quite possibly over-educated, most definitely underpaid, over-burdened with educational debt and wondering whether I made a wrong turn somewhere.
I’m freely willing to admit that these musings are somewhat spurred by the knowledge that I’m missing my good friend’s wedding back home today. A good friend who’s invitation to date I turned down those years back. And, as most of my peers are settling down and beginning to embrace all the responsibilities of adulthood, I find myself feeling like I am out in the world just…floating.
I guess I was wondering if there were any others out here in the mid-to-upper 20’s range who feel like they missed the boat (either accidentally or deliberately) and are now left a bit unsure what to do next in life? Whether it be job-wise, or simply vocation-wise, is anyone else just waiting for the next page to turn? A friend of mine described the sensation of having the “pause” button on your life held down, while everyone else’s seems to be set to “fast-forward”. My faith has always been a wonderful constant for me that I rely on, so in that sense I have always felt fortunate that my choices have been made only after prayer and deliberation, not simply at the drop of a hat. I am well aware that God has a plan, but at this point I’m beginning to think that if my biography were to be written it would be one of those “choose your own ending” books. :o
Don’t get me wrong, I love my independence but as the years pass, I notice that the path I have taken is starting to drastically diverge from that of my friends and peers.
Has anyone else experienced this whether as the person who’s taken the path less travelled, or having known someone who did? How did it turn out? Do you think that people are “figuring things out” too late, or are you just waiting too long? What role did your faith play in your “big” decisions?