I have had this question on my mind awhile, with no place to ask it.
How does the church view rape?
When I was a young girl I lost the choice in my virginity, and became hateful. When I was 17 I had my first boyfriend and figured if I wasn’t a virgin God didn’t care what I did. I had him when I was 17. After ending what turned into an abusive relationship I met my now fiancé. He was raised Catholic and supported me in wanting to convert. (had wanted to since I was 12, but my wiccan mother forbid it). Knowing I was ill with pregnancy we conceived early and now have a 3m old. I told myself it was okay since that was the only time we have lied together. Since we were engaged months before hand. In my heart I now this was not right. I am not ashamed of my past, I believe God put me through everything for a reason. I would never have met Zachary, nor had my two boys. Yet alone began my walk in the faith.
Right now when new people ask my age(19) and marital status there is always an awkward pause, or look of confusion. I don’t know how to explain this. Had I the choice I would still be a virgin. Had I the choice, I wouldn’t be where I am now. I feel like I have committed all these sins, yet I am not ashamed of them. does this make sense?