So this last Friday (two days ago), I had a culmination of bad flu-like symptoms (severe muscle aching, clogged head, inability to think, exhaustion, reduced hearing and sore inner ears, inability to get comfortable) that had been building up a few days prior. However, yesterday I felt better, and today I woke up feeling sore and tired but otherwise physically able to leave my house or what have you.
However, since I had the flu-like symptoms on Friday and didn’t have a chance to get tested to ensure it was the flu (as opposed to perhaps a mono breakout) since I didn’t want to risk driving yesterday, I was worried I was still contagious today and stayed home from Mass.
After doing so though and going back to sleep, I woke up later and I immediately felt bad about missing Mass. I gave myself some self-penances throughout the day, but I know that those penances don’t make up for a mortal sin. I’m not really scrupulous at all, but I just cannot stand whenever I justify missing Mass for any reason, and especially so since I was feeling relatively well today. I also am kicking myself over not taking care of myself better the past few days (all soda, no water or juice, staying up late even though I was exhausted; I just made do with Advil), and…I just don’t know. I hate missing Mass for any reason. I’m still feeling pretty sore, but as I said, if I had to go out somewhere, I am physically capable of doing so.
Did I do the right thing staying home? I’m going to confess it as soon as possible (Wednesday probably) no matter what to be safe, but obviously my reasoning was not “I’ll just stay home and confess later” since that’s not a legitimate justification.