I was thinking about my mom recently, how much she does for me, sacrifices, stuff she’s been through, etc. It dawned on me that since I can remember, I’ve never said that I love her or that I appreciate it or that I am proud of her. I mean, in some ways that isn’t out of the ordinary. My parents are divorced, and I grew up with my (somewhat physically, more so emotionally) abusive and emotionally withdrawn father. My mom was miles away in another continent, and for the last 10 years I’ve seen her for a grand total of about 4 months added together.
My dad, god bless him, does nothing really to support me. Though I chose to live with him (looking back, the only reason why is probably because he was the Catholic one, God was obviously working that year…) he could never support me - not financially or emotionally (I lived in a seperate flat to him for the last 2 years of school before university)… My mom paid for my private schooling, my good university, my flights over, trips elsewhere, in fact, I never go without, I actually have everything I want. She is a self made millionare because of her intelligence and hard work. And I am proud of her.
But anyway… I want to tell her I love her and I’m proud but I don’t know how. I don’t want to sound… I don’t know… I have never said it. She says it whenever she calls (once a month). Won’t it just be too out of the ordinary for me? It’s not in my personality anyway - I don’t think I’ve ever told anyone I loved them. So if I told her now, would she be suspicious that I want something? Would she think of me differently? I know that sounds weird. But I’d like advice please
p.s. we communicate mainly in email so it’ll be in email