[quote="DaughterOfMary6, post:8, topic:320564"]
Do you have a spiritual director who is guiding you in these decisions? It sounds to me like you really need to talk to someone because there is some underlying issue. You don't need to mention it here but I am genuinely concerned that you are making a grave error. If God asks us to be in the world but not of the world, we cannot seclude ourselves because we are unhappy about something. We have to take action to fight it. Believe me, it would seem a lot easier for us to lock away whatever is bothering us but that's when the problem spirals out of control. You could be the key to evangelization. I pray that you will reconsider. God bless and Happy Easter!
I am personally a happy person thanks be to God, but recently I have started seeing everything in a different way. I had already decided that I wanted to go into the wilderness for lack of a better word some years ago, but didnt have the opportunity. So I continued living normally and socializing, but recently I just dislike it intensily more and more. It seems empty. people seem empty and unhappy. I find nothing that appeals to me of society, none of its entertainments, none of its "values" , nothing. I find excuses to not go out to dinner I turned down two invitations this week end to go to dinner, I am popular with friends for which I am grateful, but I do not like the secular world anymore, so I find excuses to not go out now, I spend my free time praying, doing sports, hiking in nature or on the computer. But I think I would like to go further into the wilderness where there isnt much trace of civilization. Ideally next to a Monatery so I could have spiritual guidance and pray together, study, read and just learn from them while living a lay life , a simple happy life,maybe with my own family.
I did think this feeling would go away but it hasnt. I just dont like society anymore. I used to shop for clothes all the time, really into fashion, last months I havent bought anything. It seems so trivial. I suppose I will have to buy some new clothes, but I feel fulfilled with the simple things in life.
I like looking at the butterflies, the flowers in the field, listening to the birds and praying..it makes me happy..the noise of cars or civilization bothers me.
I have spoken to my spiritual director but I havent had much feedback yet.
I am not really in a position to follow through at the moment, I would like to try it at least