Hello - and Happy Thanksgiving,
Let me start this post on a positive note by saying that the Lord has truly blessed me this year with health, happiness, a wonderful family and friends, in addition to knowledge and the chance to come back into the Church in order to grow closer to Him. My father asked me to say grace at the table this afternoon, which was a special grace since it illustrated to me that other people see that I have grown incredibly close to the Lord.
However, the negative side of this post is just to say that my addiction to masturbation is wearing me down. Now, while I’ve not actually committed the sin in several weeks now, the temptations have become particularily stronger. It seems that even the slightest things cause me to become aroused. Sadly, I can barely look at a pretty girl who is dressed modestly without becoming aroused in some way. Other thoughts are not so modest, I’ll admit, but they have a way of sneaking up on me after indulging in them for so long, so I have to catch myself and think immediately of our Lord or our Mother. At times, I have to isolate myself and pray as fervently as I can. All in all, though, I am succeeding. God be praised! It’s hard, though – very hard!