Lust is a powerful sin and Im sorry to admit that it’s one of my biggest trouble areas.
So as you may see how Im in great need of the sacrament of Reconsiliation every now and then due to slip ups.
So with this in mind you may see how it’s frustrating to be member of a parish who does not offer any confessional time during the week except if one makes a appointment with the priest oneself.
I myself are a former Lutheran (convert of Easter 14) and I find it stressful enough in itself to confess my sins to a priest and “the make an appointment” part makes it even worse.
Now, if Im in need of confession (witch I currently am) I have to walk up to the priest after mass on Sunday and “botter” him with a request for confession.
It feels like Im some sort of a freak as Im needing to make confessions every so often.
Also it feels like its our priest sees it as a hassle becouse it steals from his social time with other parishioners. He is quite a social type you see.
We do only have two priests btw, the one is a heavily overworked Vicar and the other one is a Polish priest (for Polish only it feels).
So this actually keeps me from confession for long periods of time and forces me to abstain from the communion and let’s just say its somewhat frustrating.
It feels like Im one out of maybe 5-10 people who actually goes to confession frequently while the rest of the parishioners never never are.
I have however gone to a parish in the Capitol for confession earlier as the do offer 30 mins confession time every day of the week, but it’s quite impractical as well as super depressing when I fall again shortly after.
So my question is; what should I do?
Should I just confess once a month even though Im living in mortal sin since its so, so impractical for both me and our priest with regular confessions or should I confess in the Capitol parish as often as I need even though it takes a entire day to travel both ways?
I mean, can’t it be seen as a waste of time and money to travel 50 km just to confess and possibly be seen as a sin in itself to waste resources on such trip?
Thanks in advance for any answers I may receive:)
And may God have mercy on my soul until I get to confession as Im quite afraid of ending up in hell if I die before I’ve gone to Confession.
Also, if its not to much to ask please say a Hail Mary for me if you have the time.
Yours in Jesus and Mary