Thank you everyone for your kind replies.
To my pleasant surprise, I am feeling a lot of strenght and peace. It is not so often I feel God's presence with me when I go through hard times. So I am grateful things so far are going good.
I need to be honest, I am find it hard to be with my brother and mother since let's just say we have had our issues. And there were some litlle disagreements over trivial things. But so far so good
And here is where I am SO confused. I have prayed for years for God to bring me peace over past traumatic events which I feel He has never answered. Yet I barely prayed since my dad died and I have received tons of help over loosing my dad.
I also feel like a misfit because I am function more like my normal self. For example, my brother keeps asking me if Aunty so and so called yet and my mom will tell him he spoke to her earlier.
Then, my brother took my mom around town to run errands and my mom keeps saying 'Your father and I went to the grocery store earlier' and my brother will give me a 'look' to let me know she is confused and my brother is the one who took her.
Yet, (unless I am really wrong) I think I am making total sense.
But againg, thanks fo your prayers and I am grateful that I sense God's presence