want to, so now I feel guilty.
There is a huge number of things I need to do which I find extremely difficult to do when I am watching the children, which is almost all the time because my husband will “watch” them for me but what that means is that he lets them watch tv. He’s not Catholic, and doesn’t understand why there are some movies I don’t want them to watch, or why I don’t want them to watch a lot.
So he suddenly decided to take the children to an event a couple of hours drive away, an event that I was not in the least interested in, nor was I interested in riding that far, esp considering that I have to drive about 3 hours tomorrow for another (necessary) reason. But mostly I thought: great! I’ll finally be able to do x, y, and z!!!
So then he got mad because I said I didn’t want to go, and then he said that he’s always working, and I asked if he wanted to discuss it, which he didn’t because he never wantts to discuss anything–he either gives in sulkily or gets really mad–but the reality is that he’s in his office (at home) all the time, but he not only works, he always spends hours on the phone with relatives and friends who are going through a crisis, other people in his line of work helping them out, etc. There are plenty of times when he doesn’t join us but ends up watching movies instead.
So I don’t think it’s fair for him to get mad, but otoh, I also want to be a submissive wife. But I also would like to have time to myself to get these certain things done, without thinking the whole time that I am either going to be interrupted or that the children are just watching tv.
So was it a sin that I didn’t go with him? He was mad when he left–wouldn’t say good bye or anything. I try not to ask him to do stuff because he doesn’t even do the stuff he comes up with for himself to do, and when I ask him, he usually has a reason for why he won’t do it, so I feel like he’s being unfair, but I also know that feelings aren’t facts and life isn’t always fair…
I’m just confused! Thanks!