Hi everyone. I’m Serina, I’m 19 years old, and I’m considering a vocation to religious life. Progress on this is slow, so in the meantime I have a job taking care of a 20 m/o baby boy while his mother and father are at work. My job is really starting to get to me. I don’t really make much money, it’s less than minimum wage. I have to get up every day at 5:20 am and go to bed really early too. When I get to work I have several hours alone before he wakes up, and during that time there really isn’t much for me to do except pray, watch boring tv shows, and surf the internet. When the baby gets up, and after I get him ready for the day and everything, there’s not much to do except read a book or watch him play.
I feel like I’m only really living from the time I get home–about 1:30 in the afternoon, until about 9:00 when I have to get ready for bed. I’m sort of upset because I’m not making more money from this job, but the family is struggling to take care of themselves so I can’t ask for(or expect) a raise. I want to keep this job because I don’t know that I can find another one if I quit, it was really hard to find this one. Plus the family is depending on me, it would be hard for them to find a babysitter to replace me. If I did quit the job, it might look bad on my resume, and I need some job experience anyway to make my resume look good.
So my question is, what can I do to make my job more fulfilling? I don’t want to be one of those people continually dreaming of Friday. I want to know that what I’m doing at work is actually leading me towards my true vocation, or could be a part of my vocation. What could I do so that I don’t spend my day in idleness?
Any advice would be helpful.