Please pray for me to get my life straightened out & to accept and do God’s will more cheerfully.
I’ve been without a job for over 3 years… and I haven’t occupied my time at all well during those years. I looked for a job half-heartedly for a year or so. Then I broke my back and was in a brace for 6 months (I ran into a tree; thank God I hurt only myself and my car - and I healed very well). My driver’s license was suspended for a year. Now I have a license but I am doing practically nothing with my time (both without and with the license). I haven’t been studying for a job at all, although I am going to take some classes soon.
I do have a disability (something embarrassing) that caused me to lose my job. But it has only caused temporary problems. It’s hard for me to blame this illness or my other “misfortunes” for the way I’ve been running my life.
The littlest thing has maybe caused me the most grief - the apparent inability I have to clean my house (both clutter and dirt). It makes my home a very disagreeable place to be. I’ve had “cleaning sprees” but very rarely.
Self-discipline, “just do it”, “do it just a little bit at a time”. I hear all these things and “keep trying” to live them, and to do and accept God’s will, and to “take myself lightly”. But I keep doing “what I wanna do”.
It’s obvious that others have far worse problems. I am fortunate that I’ve had enough savings to live without a job (but not forever). I am fortunate that I do (for the most part) have my health.
Your suggestions are most welcome. But most of all I ask for your prayers. Thank you.