Be it my family, friends or workplace. My misanthropic attitude is getting worse and out of control.
I wasn’t always like this. In fact I used to love the company of others and saw their good points.
And to think that I have reverted to Catholicism only 2 years ago. Done so much reading on history and all the intellectual side of things/apologetics Yet my character is if anything, worse. I’m most likely number 1 hypocrite on CAF.
I need to do an all night vigil I think. Because the distance between my good intentions and reality is ever widening.
I appreciate your prayers. Pray that I learn to pray better. Pray that my relationship with God becomes real and that I can pass on God’s love to others. I had a serious argument with my brother last week. I just know God must be totally pissed off with me. (oops bad language) Because all I managed to do was make both of us feel more depressed and anxious. In my defence I will say I needed to tell him to stop dominating our conversations. But the communication on my part was poor.
Look. Can I just say a word of thanks to all you sincere people who pray for others. it truly is a selfless act. The world needs you and so do I.