Long ago, I thought like you are thinking now. I was not raised Catholic, I had no idea why the Church taught what it did, I believed my mother when she said old celibate men should not decide for us…
I’m sure, gven my other opinions and ideas, that I would have railed against the Church’s antagonism of two people sharing their love for each other in same-sex marriage had that been so much as an idea on the horizon at that time (guess I’m dating myself with that info ;))
But here I am, by the grace of a loving God, Catholic and believing all that the Church teaches.
What happened? I started thinking for myself and not accepting with blind faith everything the secular world said. The first crack in my thinking was the absurd idea that the US should disarm itself at a time when the Soviet Union was still rattling its saber.
The second crack was seeing how all those calling for liberation for people were calling for an awfully narrow area in which to be liberated. If a woman like me wanted to stay home and raise her children, the feminists considered her a traitor. Heaven forbid that a black person in the US say sometime that hadn’t been approved by the progressive movement!
Gradually God drew me towards Him, first showing me the utter absurdity of evolution, then the need for His help and grace. Little by little I came closer. Having a family and seeing the importance of its integration and cohesion moved me along further.
Then I read a book which presented the reasoning behind the Chirch’s prohibition on birth control, which also covered why sexual acts outside of a marriage between a man and a woman were wrong. This book also explained other things about Catholicism and so I returned to the Church into which I had been baptised.
Because I was open-minded and willing to look at evidence, I was able to see that I had been wrong about many things. Because I was willing to think for myself, because I believed that finding the truth was more important than keeping to my old ideas or continuing to think in the same way as many people around me, God was able to lead me to His truth (not that I do not give Him credit for my openmindedness and desire for truth :)).
So Reducko, you are at an age where you want to understand rather than to just accept whatever you decide to believe in, and that is perfectly normal. What would be strange would be if you continued to accept the Faith you have been raised in as if younwere still a child.
But what you need to understand is that no matter how you feel about things, there is an actual truth, a truth you ought to search for and grapple with until you can live with it once you have found it.
And that will take a willingness to consider matters as adults do: listening, weighing evaluating, sorting… consider who benefits by saying this? Consider what advantages there are for that? Sift the self-serving propaganda from what actually helps the world. Ask yourself why, if a new idea seems so good, it was never accepted before?
But most of all, as you embark on this quest, remain openminded and willing to listen until you understand what the others are saying, and you can evaluate and decide.
I hope that you will stay here and be willing to discuss your questions Welcome to CAF!