Crisis might be an overstatement but here is the story in a nutshell: My vocations director told me that after 5 years of discerning he doesn’t think I will ever be ready to enter the seminary.
More elaborated, last year during the Eastertide, some bad things happened which involved me standing up for a young person who was being abused (and causing a police investigation into the parish administration for mandatory reporting statute violations) and overstepping my boundaries as a parishioner when I corrected my old pastor’s liturgical heresy. Needless to say we no longer get along and he (falsely) accused me of some pretty nasty things.
He said that I need to rectify these issues before I can restart my discernment process. But the problem is out of my control. I haven’t been able to talk with him. I can’t force his forgiveness.
I am brokenhearted at this news but I don’t know what to do. I have been discerning a possible vocation to an order especially the Holy Cross and the Arch Diocese of Military Chaplaincy and The Arch Dioceses of Dallas and Austin and (well not an order but you get the point)
Do you guys think I should follow my vocations director and take a break from discernment even if it means I probably won’t be able to enter the seminary (with where I am at in discernment and the timeing of seminary and how long he said I should wait puts me over the age limit for ordination as well as I would have wasted more than half my life), or do you think I should look into another diocese/order. Is it morally wrong to disobey him? I do trust my Bishop and his appointments, but I really don’t understand my vocation directors logic.