I have posted on here a few times before, asking for prayers and wishes on my discernment into priesthood. I’ve been through a lot since then, and the Holy Spirit has truly revealed itself in me, I feel and ever-stronger desire to serve Jesus and give everything up in His name. Praise God!
So, in the last week or so, I’ve taken the first steps into entering the seminary and beginning my study (or preparation for it). I spoke to my priest/spiritual director, and he’s quite happy with everything. He says there will be someone coming from my home country in the next month or so who can organize and analyze my candidacy.
But the main problem is that my priest strongly keeps suggesting that I finish my current (unrelated) studies first (I’m nearing the end towards a degree in Business). I’ve gone from hinting to insisting that I have no desire to do so; discerning my priesthood has been something which has developed me in such a way that I want to only work for Jesus, and focus completely on serving Him, nothing more. He says that it’d be beneficial, at least just for discipline and “bling” purposes if I finished it seeing as I’m so close to the end (he makes a strong point, citing his own life as someone who finished a degree and then subsequently went into the seminary). He says it’s always good to have background in something else, which is understandable I guess. However, to finish my degree would require a lot of effort; I’d need to complete engagement courses which require working with other businesses on their projects. I just find this sort of stuff to be unnecessary and distracting; I’ve just got a constant burning desire in me to begin my course to priesthood. I know myself and how I react to certain situations, and I can say with certainty that I wouldn’t be happy undertaking said stuff. It is irrelevant and contrary to what I want to be doing and learning, and I feel I can better use the time to perhaps prepare better for my priest life in the future (perhaps starting to learn Latin or something). I’m currently in the process of also practicing with living under vows of chastity, poverty and humility (I want to go into the Franciscan religious order), which again I find very difficult and spiritually demanding to follow, thus my studies would only distract and further me from my spiritual call.
Of course, finishing my course is not a requirement, however my priest said that it’s more than likely that anyone I talk to (including my candidacy judges) will tell me to do the same thing. He says it’s more of a matter of discipline that I shouldn’t just give up on something because I don’t enjoy it anymore etc. I will probably be able to find a way around it, no doubt (if worst comes I’d just find a new order or diocese to go through), however it really annoys and worries me for the time being.
Is anyone able to give me some advice on this matter? Should I forget about my spiritual discernment and preparation for the time being and complete an unrelated course, or should I just go straight ahead with my desire and begin my journey? The choice seems obvious, but as I said my priest strongly insists that I look into completing my degree. It’s really starting to become a factor in my desire and path to serving God.
O God, please make my paths straight!