I have discerned that I have a calling to religious life and I've known this for a year and a half. I can't escape that God is calling me to live for Him alone. This gives me nothing but peace and happiness when I think about it and I have accepted His request to become a Sister. I applied to a religious order in February 2009, but I have discerned that it was not quite time yet to enter anywhere. Now, I am discerning with another order that I am really excited about and whenever I think about them, I get a great big smile on my face. I've spent quite a lot of time with both the male and female members of the religious community (friars and sisters) and I feel this is THE place, but to be really sure, I'm going up in January 2010 to make a visit to the convent for a vocations retreat. It took every ounce of me to make the move to do it because I was a bit nervous with the idea that I could end up not wanting to leave, but I am just putting my trust in God that He will provide.
I've fortunately qualified to receive unemployment so that I can pay off my debts, which is a huge weight off my shoulders! :extrahappy: But I am still trying to find a spiritual director and a job (if I'm meant to have one). If I can't find a job, I plan to go to school and finish up my college degree (A.A. degree) and do volunteer work. If everything goes well and there are no hindrances to my entry in September, I plan to ask for an application on retreat. I'm definitely praying that the Holy Spirit guides me so I don't move too quickly. They also have a retreat in March that I might go to just to spend more time with the Sisters.
Please keep me in your prayers that I make a good decision in patience and fidelity to Our Lord. God bless!